All Felt Out

I'm done feeling anything for Aaron. He's unfortunately proven to be another brutha full of shit. They all give you the signs. You just have to recognize them and heed them.

The biggest sign that he may be unstable and unreliable was the Sunday that he intentionally blew me off. The excuses he gave for doing so may have been valid to him but they were such bullshit.

Excuse #1 he gave for blowing me off was that he thought I needed some time alone. How do you dictate what I need? You don't fucking know me. I told him that I was still willing to meet him and I just needed to take care of closing my credit card account. You know, protecting my credit does take higher priority than meeting a potential prick. I mean, date.

Excuse #2 he gave for blowing me off was that he was put off by my mentioning I had a date the Saturday before. I will admit I probably shouldn't have been so cavalier about it. But tell me the Friday evening he had with "a friend" wasn't a date? Even if it was really with a friend, surely he's juggled dates before and had to tell a little white lie so that the jilted date wouldn't feel bad. The most I'm guilty of was being too honest with him.

Excuse #3 he gave for blowing me off was that he thought I was lying about being robbed at Bally's & was using that as a way to break the date. First off, as I said in Excuse #1, I was still willing to meet him. Also even if you thought I was lying about it, the right thing to do would've been to ask. He could've asked playfully if he was worried I was gonna blow up, which I probably would've if he accused me of such over the phone.

Bottomline...he had given me a sign right there. But all it took was the word 'Hi...' (and for the 3rd time, yeah, he left the three dots afterwards...*LOL*) three days later, and I was all fascinated with him again.

I'm such a moron.

But when he does eventually call me. And trust me, I know he will. They all do. It may be a month or a year from now. The point is when he calls, I'm just going to act cool and collected. I'm not going to let him know how upset he had me or how much power he had over my thoughts. No I won't give him that satisfaction. If he wants to go out with me again, I'll see if I have time but he won't be my highest priority anymore. I will be aloof and guarded so I won't fall for his game. I know I should just cut him off but as Ms. Holiday said, it's all for fun anyway. There's plenty of fish in the sea & he'll be just a tiny guppie in my date book.

Where's my keys? I need to go to work.

Oh yeah, if you read my random thoughts, you probably saw that I was supposed to have a dental appointment. I did have one set for this morning. Unfortunately I have a bad cough and sore throat from the fever I was fighting on Tuesday so I cancelled and rescheduled. I didn't want to be coughing while he's working on my teeth...*LOL*.