I Want IT

Where have I heard that title before? Oh yeah, I remember where I got IT from.

Well, just like That Dude Right There so nicely put IT (Heh.), I want IT in the 06.

I'm probably going to sound incoherent today, though I can't blame IT on alcohol. IT's just my thoughts are so jumbled up, I can't really organize them.

Hemingway if you've been following me last month, you know that I took part in Ms. Holiday's 30 day challenge. Well the deadline was over days ago. So how did I do?

Well, you guys know I exceeded my goal in cleaning up the house. But IT's hard work to maintain. I found myself starting the ritual of piling shit up again. Why do I do that? I don't need IT. (Heh...had to sneak yet another "IT" in there.) Sigh. I just life is like that. You have to constantly mind your own. Otherwise things get out of whack just like that.

Let's see. I also had that goal of exercising 15 minutes every morning God graces me to wake. Well, that one didn't quite pan out. I did start that food diary but I sorta got a bit lazy after the holidays. I blame IT on the holiday food eating. Ok. Who am I kidding? My ass dropped the ball. Let's just say I ate a lot of bad shit over the holiday...you know the good stuff like turkey, yams, sweet potatoe pie. I even went to McDonald's as soon as I got back from the train station. IT was after midnight and I was hungry. Confucius would say that psychologically since I knew Eugene was meeting his friend at Mickey D's, I deep down wanted to experience the same thing. Or maybe I would say IT.

Oh my gosh. I told you I was incoherent today. And again, that's without alcohol...*LOL*. I promise I'll start continuing the food diary thing soon. Moving on.

I had another goal of learning two different tools of choosing better investments. I have done pretty good in this arena. I learned about pivot points and resistance and support levels as I alluded to in an earlier post. So that's been done.

My final goal was to complete two chapters of my elusive chapter. I didn't make my goal unfortunately.

But the good news is that just because I didn't make all my goals by Jan 1, it doesn't mean that I can't achieve it by February.

So back to IT. What do I want?

I was sitting in the parking lot recently waiting for a friend to leave Bally's. He had the car keys so I was pretty much stuck. There was this little beetle that was crawling toward my feet. I was a bit bored and in my moment of boredom, I flung the beetle back. The beetle was momentarily stunned but I was amazed when IT decided to crawl back towards me. I flung IT back again. Once again, IT came back towards me. I flung IT back again.

Then I thought. Damn. That beetle just taught me a basic priniciple that I forgot. IT was determined to get to my side of the sidewalk and each time an obstacle (Me, myself, and I.) threw a setback at IT. But each time I did that, the beetle was determined to get there. IT had that determinaton no matter how many times I stood in IT's way. And that's how I need to be in the 06. If I can see IT, I can do IT. If I believe IT, there's nothing to IT. That don't mean I believe I can fly, though (Heh.). But I can do whatever I put my mind to. So I need to keep that in mind, for whatever IT is that I want.

Mariah Carey's early hit Make IT Happen says IT best (for me): "Still I have to keep on going. Never knowing if I could take IT. If I would make IT through the night. I held on to my faith. I struggled and I prayed. And now I finally come my way."

That's how life is. We have to come our way somehow. And I believe whatever IT is I want to change, I'll eventually do so.

Happy 2006 everyone!

P.S. Realizing that the beetle taught me an important lesson, I did the right thing and flung IT back towards where IT was going. I did IT right on time too because my friend would've probably crushed IT...*LOL*.